Currently, I'm listening to "IDK You Yet" by Alexander 23, and I find myself pondering on the thoughts of self-love, and how we often times look for that love in others, gravely unsure about what it is we want from the world, and what we want to give to the world. Do we want to be authentic? Do we want to be the villain? or do we simply want to be the person that seems familiar based on what we have been told to us.
Expanding beyond my Podcast and bringing my thoughts to a webpage for people to read or not to read was, believe it or not a form of self care. We spend a lot of our time wondering who it is we want to be, and that got me thinking about why it feels as though most of us manage to never really grasp onto the dreams we have day in and day out? I was able to uncover just a the tip of the ice berg on what it is I think is part of the problem here....we aren't fucking sure (laughs ironically in potato). We struggle to understand our wants, almost like children, because we're unsure about all the things we want, and don't truly allow ourselves to want those things for ourselves.
In the song, upon listening to it, its a song to a long lost lover. He's not ready. When I hear the song now, when I hear love songs right now, all I feel, is as though I'm talking to the version of myself I really wish I had acquainted with sooner in my life.
We search for a reason, we search for a sign in the sky to tell us what the grand scheme is. What the purpose is. Why am I here? Why do I suffer? Why isn't it easier now that I'm here? Well, dear readers....it's because were human. We're here for the experience of reality. We're here to feel things that our souls can't do without a body. It's not a secret that I am a fairly spiritual potato woman, but I also feel like that spirituality has brought me closer to the understanding that I have neglected the part of me that needed more love, and needed to be allowed to dream.
We dream, as people; and as complete souls. Alan Watts, a British philosopher and writer, had some interesting thoughts on daydreaming. In his book "The Way of Zen," he discussed the idea that daydreaming can be a useful tool for meditation and creative thinking.
Watts believed that daydreaming could help people to connect with their deeper selves and access their unconscious minds. He saw it as a way to let go of everyday worries and concerns, and to tap into the limitless potential of the imagination.
In his view, daydreaming was not a waste of time, but rather a way to access a different kind of reality. He saw it as a way to explore the possibilities of what could be, rather than simply accepting what is...
Watts also saw that self-love was not about being self-centered or narcissistic, but rather about accepting oneself fully and unconditionally. He believed that self-love involves embracing both our strengths and weaknesses and recognizing that we are all imperfect human beings. He believed that self-love involves letting go of the ego and the need to constantly compare ourselves to others. He saw the ego as a source of suffering and believed that true self-love involves transcending the ego and recognizing our interconnectedness with all things.
We are on this earth to know ourselves. To love ourselves. To know us, and show us to each other, and compare, share, laugh, and dare...to love. It's scary. It's uncertain. It's unfamiliar. But it never has to be lonely. Enjoy the moment, my dears. For it's incredibly fleeting, and before we know it, our bodies fade and make way for a new era of souls to experience the same senses.